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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 28.06.2025 02:50

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I will be 64.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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All the time i was locked up.

Comes on , in middle age.

Especially a lifetime of it.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One cannot live in the past .

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She wouldn,t have been !

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was scared of men, in general

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I have no regrets .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was very sick at this time too.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

So, i spoilt her more .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Put me off passion for life!!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I said to her

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im still living with it.

We were not on the streets..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But ive been too sick for many years..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I waited trembling.

Would this be the day?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She was in good health!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Ive learnt so much.

She found it foreign!.

But it wasn’t much.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

When she asked me how she looked .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She married twice! .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I couldn’t, believe it.

This is soul school!.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My mum and dad in the seventies!

As i do to all so called friends.?

She loved him until the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And i lived it daily.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So whats the point in blame.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

What did i know ?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But, we were locked up after school.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He knew the spot.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It was going to be , some day.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I write beautiful poetry .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My life is so biszare .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was seconnd youngest,

I don,t even have a pension.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I was 9 years of age.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We all went to grammer schools

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Who then, do I blame.?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.